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Lost in the Dark

The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had.

This journal may contain adult concepts.

Created on 2008-09-10 21:44:43 (#16565209), last updated 2009-11-10

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Name:	郷家神樹 (Shinju Gouka)
Birthdate:	01-04
Location:	United States

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-The Basics

Name: Shinju Gouka
Age: 17 (physical), 18 (actual)
Birthday: January 4
Height: 5'8 1/2"
Hair: Light brown
Eyes: Dark brown (natural), White-blue (blind, current)
Dominant Hand: Left
Occupation: Student, Security guard
Interests: Architecture, Music, Literature, Martial arts

-Personality

On the surface, Shinju Gouka is a very friendly and caring teenager, well-adjusted to his lack of vision, with the occasional quiet moment and a strong desire to help others.

Not to say that any of that is untrue; however, there is a much darker side to him that he doesn't often care to reveal. Inside, Shinju is a very self-conscious person, not thinking much of himself, and often feeling useless. He constantly fights this feeling, trying to keep as bright an outlook at possible, but often fails. These feelings can be attributed to his blindness, but are also due to the many tragic experiences he's gone through, all within just a few months.

-History

Shinju, an only child, was raised by a wealthy couple, and was often spoiled by them with gifts and trips to places all over the country--but even with this, the thing he enjoyed the most was spending time with his often-busy parents. They made sure to instill in him the importance of helping those less fortunate, and he grew to be a polite and helpful young man, if not with a bit of an ego.

A few months before his 18th birthday, Shinju's house was burned to the ground, taking his parents and everything he knew with it. While he was in the hospital for a serious (but not life-threatening) injury, he further found out that his school and friends had met the same fate not two days later, and he attempted to commit suicide.

Soon after he recovered physically, he was sent to a psychiatric ward of sorts to help repair the emotional damage. For several weeks, however, he continued to refuse the idea of living, loathing everyone around him for forcing him to survive. One day, he recieved a visitor who planted the idea of revenge in his mind (to this day Shinju still can't remember who), and he slowly began to be more compliant to the doctors, aiming for that one purpose.

On the day he was to be released, he met a girl he'd once known from school who had gone missing a while before either of the fires. Piecing together the clues, he realized that this girl was the one who called herself "Ryoko", the one who he believed was responsible for everything he'd lost. Though he attempted to assault her, he was (somewhat forcefully) escorted out of the building. Upon leaving with the other patients, he and the others were attacked by those who claimed to follow Ryoko, leaving only Shinju alive. The sight of this caused him to black out and lose his memories.

It was at this point when he became a bodyguard for a company known as ECLIPSE, a large conglomerate that controlled most of the economy. Soon he became somewhat dependant on his superior, Commander Rokein (head of security and son of the CEO), who was surprisingly caring to him. Several weeks into his amnesia, Ryoko appeared in disguise, and fooled him into believing they had promised a meeting before he lost his memory. She led him to what seemed to be an exact copy of his own house, strangely enough, and his memories came back to him.

With his amnesia gone, he attempted to choke the girl, only to be met with claws in his chest--the girl wasn't completely human, he discovered--and the poison from said claws paralyzed him temporarily and clouded his eyes. When he found he could move again, a day later, he contacted Rokein and was rescued. However, his vision was permanently lost, as no doctor had ever seen his sort of condition before.

When he recovered, he dedicated himself to his job, intent on killing Ryoko once and for all. Due to his ruthlessness and apparent refusal to speak with his coworkers, he was called "Hellfire"--as the pronunciation of his last name can mean such in Japanese--and avoided by most. However, there were a few good friends he managed to make, and he truly appreciated them.

-In The City

Shinju's experiences in the City have no doubt changed him and his outlook on life. Though previously he would have turned away most who tried to talk to him, he began to open himself up a little more, becoming friendly and polite to those he met. Though he often dislikes the City and the way it seems to treat its residents as toys, he wouldn't give up the friends he's made there for anything. A few experiences the City has forced on him have been major influences: the mafia-related dream, where he was framed and nearly convicted of his then-girlfriend's murder; the undead invasion, when he was forced to kill the aforementioned (then ex-)girlfriend; and the bodyswap event, when he was finally able to see again, even if for a short time.

During his time in the City, he's become tired of senseless violence, and has decided against revenge, instead deciding to use his abilities to protect others as best he can. He's mostly lost all hope of returning to his world, seeing that while he's been there for over a year, many of the other citizens (including several good friends) have disappeared, assumed to have returned home. Though he's gotten back together with his girlfriend, Emeraude, he's found himself lonely as of late. Thanks to his over-protectiveness (perhaps even possessiveness) and a few poorly placed words, he's completely lost the friendship of one of the few people left in the City. This, along with the disappearance of so many people, has left him shaken and a bit unstable. Every day it seems to him he's losing the people he cares about, whether by physical or emotional distance.

-Appearance and Abilities

Shinju is of average height, with a thin but athletic build and messy, layered hair. He is of mostly Caucasian descent, though he has some Japanese heritage (from his great-great-grandfather) which shows through his eyes. There are three major scars that he has: one on his upper arm (which he tends to touch subconsciously when nervous or remembering something unpleasant; from the time his house burned down), one on his chest (from being blinded), and one on his wrist (self-inflicted). He always wears his silver and garnet pendant--the only thing he has left from his parents--though it's often hidden under his shirt.

As would be expected, Shinju is able to read Braille, and his hearing is extremely sensitive. Academically, he is excellent at math and languages, as well as arts (though he is unable to do much of it without his sight). Physically, he is adept at judo and kendo, as well as competent with the use of his katana, knives, and gun. However, due to his lack of vision, he is more comfortable with close-quarters fighting, where he can more easily hear and feel the movements of his foes. Because his opponents have to move before he can act, he is more vulnerable to attacks, and is generally unable to fight completely on the offense. He trains by himself at least three times a week, as long as the City hasn't done something strange to him.

For those with enhanced senses, Shinju's blood (and to a lesser extent, Shinju) smells of the poison he was blinded by, as it constantly flows through him. Those with a "sixth" or spiritual sense may see a very faint, almost light green aura around him, as if he's protected by something. Shinju himself is completely unaware of either of these.

Relationships

Emeraude Iserath: Girlfriend. They met even before the City was discovered, and were in a relationship for several months. He broke off the relationship with her in the hopes she'd find someone better than him, but ended up getting back together with her after the telepathy event and accidentally crushing the hopes of Emeraude's then-boyfriend, Kaito. She's one of the few things keeping him sane.

Zach Eisen: Best friend. Zach and Shinju have known each other for a long time, and despite their differences, are almost like brothers. However, they haven't seen eachother in a while due to Zach's disappearance from the City.

Tamaki Suou: Good friend. Tamaki knows about most of the things that have happened to Shinju that he doesn't often share with others. The blond never fails to cheer Shinju up with his enthusiasm and optimism. Even with his friend now absent from the City, Shinju still continues to be influenced by his memory.

Kresnik Ahtreide: Close friend. Though at first Shinju was a bit put off by his stubborn attitude towards monarchs (and thus Emeraude), he's grown to consider Kresnik as someone he can trust with his life, and enjoys talking to him when they meet.

Sho Minamimoto: "Friend". Sho has manipulated Shinju into trusting him, believing Shinju to hold some special power he could use in the future.

Delilah Aoyama: Friend. Shinju's thought of Delilah as a good person since he first met her, but it wasn't until a bit later until he considered them friends. Through a certain sequence of events, Shinju ended up entrusting Del with a secret, and since then has begun to speak with her more often. As one of the few people left in the City, he cherishes her friendship deeply.

Miles Edgeworth: Friend. Shinju enjoys talking with Miles about literature, especially, but is glad to talk with him on any intellectual subject--somewhat unfortunate, because Shinju can never seem to keep up a conversation with him. However, he's now disappeared from the City.

Altair Ibn La'Ahad: Friend. Shinju was very friendly with Altair when he first moved to the City, but now he seems to have disappeared.

Howl Pendragon: Friend of sorts. Though Shinju can generally get along with the wizard and does feel that they're friends, his high and mighty attitude tends to get on Shinju's nerves, and he's often very sarcastic towards Howl.

Farmel Arianrhod: Friend of sorts. Their relationship wavers between normal conversation to her attempting to tease him only to be flatly refused. Though he tends to get exasperated by her attempts to get him to talk about things like sex and/or alcohol, he's not adverse to talking to her, as he doesn't think she's a bad person. He'll sometimes wonder how the Commander's fared since she left the City.

Gakupo Kamui: Vocaloid and friend. Shinju met Gakupo when he first arrived in the City, and after a bit of conversation, the samurai asked Shinju to be his master. Though he was a bit hesitant, he accepted. After having switched bodies with him during an event, he began to think of speaking with the vocaloid more, but he disappeared shortly afterwards.

Sariel: Friend of sorts. Shinju's relationship with the fallen angel is complicated. Though he can get along with Sariel well, they often end up throwing sarcasm back and forth. Shinju is happy to help the angel keep her dangerous and unkind reputation.

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